The Dodgy Drug Deal

So about 3 weeks ago I went on an overnight "camping" trip in the mountains, in the snow and cold, and came down with a horrendous sinus infection. Needless to say, I have been totally miserable since then and am only now starting to feel like a human. This is how it all started...
Once upon a time in the mountains..okay Im going to stop that paragraph right there because this was no fairytale trip. Because of transportation issues, I ended up hiking, yes hiking, (those who know me well will attest to the fact that I do NOT hike..EVER) about 2 miles, complete with a backpack, into the woods, for a little overnight thingy with about 10 or so other people. Fortunately it wasn't very cold for the hike and after 2 and a half hours I finally crawled, yes crawled into the "camp" and I use that term loosely, as I all I was seeing were piles of stuff and no place to prop my tired rear end.  I was not going to be a happy camper, and I made sure my husband was aware of that fact right away as I stumbled to a pile of stuff to sit and rest my aching legs.
Everyone was running around setting up tents and building fires and cutting trees and I was like give me a chair, I'm sitting down and I'm not moving ever again. After my initial outburst at my husband he was busy trying to get me into some sort of shelter so that he would be back in my good graces. A little side note here, thank you John for the wonderful heated tent, without it Im sure I would have passed to eternity being a freezing cold popsicle.
Moving on, I moved into my heated tent and proceeded to freeze from the knees down, because everyone knows that heat rises, and there seems to be a small draft from the tent opening. All in all it wasn't that bad, as Im sure I was much warmer than the rest of our group. Being the medic in the medical tent definitely has its benefits. I was constantly trying to get people to come in as I sure was not going outside if I could help it. I did manage to go outside and occasionally visit or grab some coffee. Let me just mention here that the prospect of going potty in the woods in the cold was not very appealing, enough said.
I actually had fun while my toes froze, and it totally enlightened me and everyone else to the fact that we are not prepared for an extended stay in cold weather, something that needs to be remedied, with heavy wool clothing and waterproof fleece lined boots, and a camp trailer, or maybe an RV hooked up to power in a trailer park, or maybe even a yurt or better yet a hotel room.
Anyways I arrived home the next day wet, cold, tired and generally disgusted with the idea of camping in the winter ever again in anything short of a heated solid building. I think it took a full day to thaw out as I truly believed I would never feel my feet again and that they might just fall off. I wasn't feeling sick at this point just the aforementioned issues. Come Sunday, the day after we came home, I was toast. I could not breath I could not hear, my head felt like it was gonna pop off my body. I layed on the couch in utter dejected misery. I did not leave the house for 5 days. On the fifth day I gave up and went to the doctors office.
I have to say right now that I don't really like doctors. Oh most of them are nice people, but I have some left over issues from my mother and an innate mistrust of doctors in general. As my husband will tell you,  I must have really thought I was dying to actually go see a doctor. Im pretty sure he was in shock when I asked to go. My physician came in looked in my ears, looked up my nose and said, yes you have a sinus infection, and Im pretty sure I already knew this little morsel of information, but sometimes it helps to have someone else confirm your suspicions. At least he didn't tell me I was dieing because at that point I was pretty sure I was.
I went home with my antibiotics and my steroids and proceeded to pass out on the couch for several days, ignoring all comments from my family about dinner and anything that they  happened to want or need. I was going to be miserable and that was that. It would be another week and a couple days before I would leave the house again. The antibiotics did not help, the steroids did not help, nothing helped. I layed on the couch and did nothing but sleep because I wasn't capable of much more than that.
I did end up going back to the doctor but it was a different doctor. This one looks up my nose, in my ears and decides I have a viral sinus infection and the antibiotics I took were basically useless and I'm not gonna die but if I would just squirt salt water up my nose, and snort some Afrin, I will probably be fine. When you're pretty sure you're dying, you don't want to hear the doctor say I don't have anything to give you.
My husband took me me to the store, we bought salt water nose stuff and afrin and went home. I have to tell you I was not looking forward to putting anything like water up my nose. I was pretty sure it wouldn't work anyways, and didn't want to torture myself by trying to drown slowly through my sinus cavities. I put it off for 3 days before I finally bit the bullet so to speak and did the water torture. At this point the pressure in my head was so bad I had been taking Sudafed for it, but since it was not working and pretty much because I was out of drugs, were the only reasons I went back to see the white coats anyway.
I decided to start with the afrin, I mean they said it would help so yeah. Lets just put it this way, I will never ever spray Afrin in my nose again.. Holy cow what a nightmare headache! I just can not understand people actually purposely torturing themselves like that. It was horrible. I needed to wash it out, so I proceeded to use the salt water wash nose stuff. Not as bad I have to say but the damage was already done. The afrin destroyed what little faith I had in doctors. I will never ever listen to another doctor that tells me to use something so awful that it should be banned on a global scale.
Now I know after this story you're wondering, why did she name it the dodgy drug deal, well let me tell you, after my experience with the nasal spray from hell, I messaged a friend of mine and this is how the conversation went:

Me: 
So Tracy you wouldn't happen to have anymore Sinutab? or maybe going to town soon? I was asleep most the day yesterday and half the day today..the pressure in my head keeps me dizzy and drowsy.. The doctor said I have a viral sinus infection that's causing fluid to build up in my sinus cavities and behind my eardrums so makes it so I cant hear very much and the woozy stuff. Hope your week is going better than mine:)
Tracy:
I have non drowsy Sudafed. The real stuff, not the cheap stuff. Do you need some?
Me:
Yes  I have only one left from the box you gave me last week, I know you get it costco but I dont have a card and I dont want to keep pilfering everything you have..I think I need some drowsy stuff also, cuz all I do is toss and turn at night and the stores seem to be all out of anything cheap.
Tracy:
Eric is going to be in town tomorrow...watcha want?
Me:
Hes Going to Costco? One of those Sudafed Packs and some type of nyquil liquid with a nasal decongestant, oh oh and a box of peppermint altoids! and and and...jk
oh man yesterday i had this headache, Im pretty sure it was from Afrin Nasal spray..made me sick dizzy and was taking tylenol and ibuprofen nothing worked,im never using that stuff again
Tracy:
That stuff is nasty! Ugh I think that he is planning on going to Costco. I will add you to the list!
Me:
I know and its what the doctor told me to take...after that I was like that aint happening again...

So anyways my daughter, who just happened to see the conversation, made the comment that it sounded like some dodgy drug deal going down, and after reading back over it I realized, oh man, good thing the NSA isn't watching this or I would have all kinds of law enforcement people showing up at my house all because of a sinus infection gone bad.
Im glad to say that after a few days of sticking my head over a pot of steaming hot water, I'm feeling much better with only a touch of sinus congestion which I'm managing with the "drugs" from my dodgy drug deal with Tracy my favorite friendly neighborhood mommy:) Thanks Tracy, and thanks to be to Jesus for prayers answered, as I'm fairly certain my husband has been begging God for my immediate recovery.

Help, Im stuck on Pinterest and I cant get off !!!

Last year I discovered Pinterest, the awesome website with oogles of inspiration for everyone. I have been stuck, for hours, looking at and frantically pinning all types of neat ideas, crafty inspiration, food recipes and just general, "stuff". As a result of my little obsession, I have amassed a huge amount of pins with a wide range of nifty little ideas. This Thanksgiving, I decided it was time to put some of those many hours of pinning to work for me in the form of table decorations.

This all started out rather quietly, while I was scouring the Pinterest Boards, when I ran across a beaded curtain. If you know me at all, you know I like beads, beading, or anything to do with beads. I suddenly remembered a beaded curtain my mother-n-law had been given and decided now was the time to try and pilfer it away from her. After all it was just sitting on a box on a shelf when it could be gracing my window right? Having acquired the above mentioned beaded curtain, it was promptly relegated to my living room table, in the box, while I thought about where to put it. Enter the Primer Family. The last couple years we have been cone picking for the state and have spent hours in the woods searching for the elusive cones from felled trees. This year one of the Primer boys brought me two dried twisted root branches. I took them home and sat them next to my boxes of beaded curtains not making a connection till a bit later. On this particular day I was also given a glass bottle that was found in those very same woods. I did not realize I had hit the jackpot until I walked into my kids bathroom and looked at the window. As I stood looking at their window it dawned on me, that I could use the root branches as a curtain hanger and hence the beaded bathroom curtain, window decoration came into being.

 This was the beginning of my Pinterest madness. As anyone who goes on Pinterest can attest, once you start its almost impossible to stop. With all the creative things people pin, you could go from one project to another and never do all of them., but I was sure gonna try. With that being said, I proceeded to plan out for thanksgiving table decorations.  I had bought some of those old cotton grain sacks and decided, with a little help from Pinterest, to make place mats and a table runner. I was able to get 4 mats out of each sack so I made twelve. You would think it would stop there, but no, as I'm cruising through of all things, Pinterest, I noticed a tutorial for making no sew cloth napkins so of course I had to make some of those. Thankfully I had enough material from a huge stash that a friend had given me when they went though and discarded some material they were not using.  Of course no table would be complete without some sort of centerpiece so, having received inspiration from , wait for it, Pinterest yet again.  I found a huge branch and proceeded to spray paint it gold, thanks to a friend of mine who just happened to have some gold spray paint left over from one of her projects. After much thought I decided that there just wasn't enough color so I convinced my husband that he just had to buy me some more gold and copper spray paint so I could paint some cones for the table. I have to admit, I was bordering on obsession with all this crafting and decorating stuff. Any way, after hours of prep and days of sudden craft making spurts, the final product was not to shabby.

Thanksgiving was a hit, I only spent about 14$ on decoration type things and we had a good time. I'm thankful for being able to have family and friends over for dinner, I'm thankful for Gods provision in mine and my families lives and I'm thankful there are so many people out there posting awesome creative ideas on Pinterest. God has given so many people talents to be used for his glory, so as I go through the rest of the year and into the next, I will be watching and waiting for the next God given creative idea.

Happy Thanksgiving!

My meeting with God...

These past couple weeks I have went through a full range of emotions, everything from sad to angry, heartbroken to wrath, and everything in between. I had a minor meltdown with my last post, and for that I would apologize to my Savior Jesus, for my lapse in self-control. It usually takes a long time for me to get really angry, but this time, it was fast, which reminds me of several Scripture references about being slow to anger, but they did not seem to want to take root in my heart while I was writing.

The other day I sat down to gather Scripture references so that I could be justified in my anger. God had another plan for me. As I sat, in my self-righteous puddle, looking for all the condemning verses I could find, God said, ENOUGH, this is what I want you to see. Instead of the bunch of "your going to hell verses" I was searching for, all I found were forgive your enemy verses, pray for those who mistreat you,  love your neighbor, do good to those who have harmed you, ect ect. Needless to say, this is not what I was hoping for or looking for. I looked to God and told him I wasn't ready to forgive, he looked at me and said I forgave you, go do the same.

I haven't completely forgiven the person I was angry at, after all I am but a work in progress, but I know one day I will be able to look at this person and love them the way God would have me to. In the meantime, God, in his infinite wisdom, reminded me of  1Corinthians 13 which just happened to be a part of my reading this morning. My God is so amazing !

1 Corinthians 13:1-13

13 If I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but do not have love, I have become a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. 2 If I have the gift of prophecy, and know all mysteries and all knowledge; and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. 3 And if I give all my possessions to feed the poor, and if I surrender my body [a]to be burned, but do not have love, it profits me nothing.

4 Love is patient, love is kind and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant, 5 does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered, 6 does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; 7 [b]bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

8 Love never fails; but if there are gifts of [c]prophecy, they will be done away; if there are tongues, they will cease; if there is knowledge, it will be done away. 9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part; 10 but when the perfect comes, the partial will be done away. 11 When I was a child, I used to speak like a child, think like a child, reason like a child; when I [d]became a man, I did away with childish things. 12 For now we see in a mirror [e]dimly, but then face to face; now I know in part, but then I will know fully just as I also have been fully known. 13 But now faith, hope, love, abide these three; but the [f]greatest of these is love.