My meeting with God...

These past couple weeks I have went through a full range of emotions, everything from sad to angry, heartbroken to wrath, and everything in between. I had a minor meltdown with my last post, and for that I would apologize to my Savior Jesus, for my lapse in self-control. It usually takes a long time for me to get really angry, but this time, it was fast, which reminds me of several Scripture references about being slow to anger, but they did not seem to want to take root in my heart while I was writing.

The other day I sat down to gather Scripture references so that I could be justified in my anger. God had another plan for me. As I sat, in my self-righteous puddle, looking for all the condemning verses I could find, God said, ENOUGH, this is what I want you to see. Instead of the bunch of "your going to hell verses" I was searching for, all I found were forgive your enemy verses, pray for those who mistreat you,  love your neighbor, do good to those who have harmed you, ect ect. Needless to say, this is not what I was hoping for or looking for. I looked to God and told him I wasn't ready to forgive, he looked at me and said I forgave you, go do the same.

I haven't completely forgiven the person I was angry at, after all I am but a work in progress, but I know one day I will be able to look at this person and love them the way God would have me to. In the meantime, God, in his infinite wisdom, reminded me of  1Corinthians 13 which just happened to be a part of my reading this morning. My God is so amazing !

1 Corinthians 13:1-13

13 If I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but do not have love, I have become a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. 2 If I have the gift of prophecy, and know all mysteries and all knowledge; and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. 3 And if I give all my possessions to feed the poor, and if I surrender my body [a]to be burned, but do not have love, it profits me nothing.

4 Love is patient, love is kind and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant, 5 does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered, 6 does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; 7 [b]bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

8 Love never fails; but if there are gifts of [c]prophecy, they will be done away; if there are tongues, they will cease; if there is knowledge, it will be done away. 9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part; 10 but when the perfect comes, the partial will be done away. 11 When I was a child, I used to speak like a child, think like a child, reason like a child; when I [d]became a man, I did away with childish things. 12 For now we see in a mirror [e]dimly, but then face to face; now I know in part, but then I will know fully just as I also have been fully known. 13 But now faith, hope, love, abide these three; but the [f]greatest of these is love.

You have got to be kidding me !!!

The past couple weeks, this has become my new mantra. I mean seriously, some of the things I have heard are just ASTOUNDING, so I decided to write a little on my blog, because hey, what better way to get it out of your system. Without going into to much detail, I find myself at a complete loss to explain the absolute insanity of the things I have heard from a certain individual who shall remain anonymous. I mean, really ???? This person seems to come from an entirely different universe as the rest of humanity and as far as I'm concerned should return there as quickly as possible. POSTHASTE !!!! The commentary spewing forth from the above mentioned individual borders on sociopath rantings of an unstable mind.  No, check that, they ARE the rantings from an unstable mind. I mean gimme a break! Since I seem to be fairly disgruntled at the moment, I will now remind myself to breath a couple times. There, some semblance of calmness will now prevail.
Just for the record, above un-named person, just because you know some 10 dollar words and can vocalize them with an extreme amount of sarcasm, does not make you smart, its just makes you a jerk, out of touch with reality, and in need of some serious psychological counseling.
Since I cant say any of this to your face, maybe by some slim chance you will read this and KNOW its about you and GET A GRIP!! I even considerately made sure to use some big words so that you could understand me. I may not know as many big words as you, but Im sure you will get the point.
Believe it or not, its not all about you and your insane desire to control everything through the deflection of your own outrageous behavior. Get some help!

I may have more to say about this in the future, or I may not. Please whoever reads this be praying for my heart to change and to become more Christ like when dealing with the barrage of idiocy I have heard from the person mentioned above.
Thankyou!